Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I am totally dazed and confused!


I don't know what to do. One minute I feel so happy and light and then the next I feel so miserable and confused. I was doing okay for most parts of today. I woke up early, did my routine, waited for my Mom to go online but never did, chatted with a couple of friends, played my iTunes songs, I was normal to say the least. But then late afternoon came and I started getting paranoid. I got confused. Bothered. Worried. I don't know. I have a plan in mind. Not to get too attached emotionally, no expectations, no nothing. Just take everything as it is. So I have no idea why out of the blue, I started feeling weird. I felt so sad that I fell asleep with a heavy chest and woke up almost crying.

This song by LeAnn Rimes has nothing to do with why I felt sad, but it exactly explains the kind of "thing" that I am in right now. If you listen to it, it's kind of upbeat and happy but take the words slowly and you'll see a little sadness to it. At least, it's what I'm feeling.

The Right Kind of Wrong

LeAnn Rimes

Know all about

About your reputation

And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation

But I can't help it if I'm helpless

every time that i'm where you are

You walk in and my strength walks out the door

Say my name and I can't fight it anymore

Oh I know, I should go

But I need your touch just too damn much

Loving you isn't really something I should do

Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah

Well I should try to be strong

But baby you're the right kind of wrong

Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

It Might be a mistake

A mistake I'm making

But what you're giving I am happy to be taking

Cause no one's ever made me feel

The way I feel when i'm in your arms

They say you're something I should do without

They don't know what goes on

When the lights go out

There's no way to explain

All the pleasure is worth all the pain

Loving you isn't really something I should do yeah hey. 

Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah

Well I should try to be strong

But baby you're the right kind of wrong

Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

I should try to run

But I just can't seem to

Cause every time I run you're the one I run to

Can't do without, what you do to me

I don't care if I'm in too deep yeah hey

Know all about

About your reputation

And now its' bound to be a heartbreak situation

But I can't help it if I'm helpless

Every time that I'm where you are

You walk in and my strength walks out the door

Say my name and I can't fight it anymore

Oh I know I should go

But I need your touch just too damn much Hey 

Loving you yeah isn't really something I should do, not something i shouldn't do

Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah

Well I should try to be strong, I should try to be strong

But baby you're the right kind of wrong, right kind of wrong

Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong, baby you're the right kind of wrong, 

yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong.

I am not sure about the "right" part but I'm pretty sure about the "wrong" part. The entire lyrics suits my situation. I actually have it on repeat and has been played more than 20 times in the past 3 hours plus another hour on the playlist. What can I say, I can relate! 

Tennis Update:

Roger Federer beat Soderling!

Ana Ivanovic retired during the second set.

Safina won. 2 games to 1. She better not lose control.

Andy Roddick won. I am so thrilled seeing him climb up to the quarter finals. I think he's doing so good this tournament.

Murray won after 5 sets. I seriously thought he's going to lose with the way he was playing!

Hewitt won after 5 sets also. It was a pretty exciting match.

Simon lost. Sad.

Monday, June 29, 2009

A Happy Happy Birthday Indeed!

Saturday, the 27th, was the eve of my birthday. The day, and by that I mean 12MN, began with a text message from my friend, Jo who greeted me cos she seriously thought it was already the 28th. I laughed but thought it was really sweet. Then a couple of hours later, I was on the phone with a guy. I don't exactly know how and what to call him because we are not really close friends (we are barely friends) although we have a lot of common friends, we're not an item but we talk every single night for at least an hour, exchange couple of text messages throughout the day, la la la la, I don't know. Anyhow, after we hung up I went to sleep and woke up earlier than usual. I received a few more text messages greeting me a happy birthday, I didn't correct them and just said thank you.

When 6PM came, I started getting ready. The small party is set to "start" at 9-10PM. A friend arrived at my house past 6 and I was still getting ready. My cousins, friend and I left home at 7:30PM. It was not really a big party so it did not take me long to shower and get dressed. I intentionally wanted to be there that early cos my cousins and I wanted to have dinner first before the gang arrives and the whole booze thing starts. So one by one they came and one by one they left. There were some who said they'd come but didn't and there are some who never replied but came. The celebration was literally small, intimate. 

When 12 Midnight struck,  it was officially my birthday, everybody greeted me and raised their beer bottles. Even the bar's  featured band's singer, Pow Chavez, greeted me. I even requested Pow to sing Love, Sex, Magic during her 2nd set but then she intentionally wanted to sing it during her third and final set cos she said I'll leave right after she sings it. LOL. It was overwhelming having them, my friends, there. After that, there were only 4 of us left and a few minutes after that there's only me and the guy. We went home earlier than expected but still not early enough, 4:30 AM. The guy and I talked for a few minutes, went to sleep at 6 AM, woke up at 10 AM, checked my Facebook and WOW, I got about 50+ birthday greetings from my friends on my Wall and my status. And then 20+ birthday greetings via text messages that same day. It was touching.

Here are some of the photos that I promised:

The early birds. The booze thing is just starting.

One of the closest girl friends I have, Cathy. Congrats to you this is your 5th straight year that you've attended my birthday celebration since we became friends 5 years ago! :) Love you Cats!

Pow Chavez. Thanks for the Love, Sex, Magic. You rock! \m/ Next time sing it earlier! LOL. I won't leave, promise!

And then the crowd goes "More! More! More!". Yes, she's that good. If you haven't seen her perform and heard her sing, feel free to check out YouTube and type Pow Chavez. Or better yet, visit Booze Stop Bar and Grill in Makati every Saturday, Pow's there. And so are my friends and I. That goes especially to my Filipino readers who are looking for a steady place to have drinks in, or dinner, or listen to good bands, or hang out with friends or all of the above! :)

Yes, I have a little more guy friends than girls but it's cool. I love them all nonetheless. :)

A few more pictures (some crazy wacky ones) are not on my camera. I wonder whose camera it was. No one's uploading yet. As expected.

Now, I have to go get ready for my dinner with my former boss. I know the photos I shared are not much but I hope you enjoyed looking at it and felt as happy as I was when they were taken.

Thank you to every one who posted their birthday greetings! 

And last but not the least, I'd like all of you to know that I am so excited because I won Jerri's of Gems by Jerri's contest! Remember this post that I made? Well, I won!! The first time that I joined a contest and the first time I won and it's my birthday!! I already e-mailed you my details. I can't wait!! Thank you!!


Tonight's Wimbledon match is between Roger Federer and Robin Soderling. Feels like the Roland Garros all over. I hope Roger wins! And Roddick too who is up against Berdych. And Simon and Ivanovic and Safina. My bets are playing tonight! Too exciting!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Tomorrow is THE day!

Of the party that is. The eve of my birthday. I don't know why I suddenly feel excited. It's not like I invited a lot of people or that the celebration is extravagant. I guess I feel excited about seeing my friends again and... yes, seeing my friends again. My high school, childhood, and college friends all together to celebrate with me even with limited budget. I heart them all.

I will be posting pictures for sure!

On another note, I woke up today with a sad sad news of the King of Pop, Michael Jackson's passing away. I just literally opened my eyes and turned to my laptop only to see almost all of my friends' status in Facebook is filled with R.I.P. I got chills. I grew up listening to his music. I loved it. It's just sad that he passed away at a young age and in an unexpected way.


Thursday, June 25, 2009

Hi and Hello.


I am sort of back from my short leave on blogging and I would like say thank you to everyone who continued to drop by here and drop their EC's, click on my ads, leave messages and comments and hello and welcome to my new Followers. I may not have as much as what others have but I am thankful to my now 56-Followers here in Mara's Personal Bubble. :)

How have you guys been doing? I have been a little busy these past few days and it's not about me planning on my new blog (I still need help there, btw), I have been busy lying around most of the day because I get dizzy when I stand and sit, when I can, I grab the chance to walk around a bit, visit a couple of blogs, upload photos, and since Tuesday I have been text brigading my friends regarding my small birthday celebration on Saturday, the 27th of June. It's not exactly my birthday yet but some high school friends wanted it to be a "birthday salubong" (birthday's eve). So I agreed and invited a few other friends. Up until now I bombard them with messages. Not like they're gonna get annoyed. They're used to me being like this whenever there's an occasion. LOL! Although there are some who don't even bother to reply whether or not they can make it.

I guess I will be back full force after my celebration. I will keep you guys posted and I will definitely share some photos from my birthday. :)

For now, I will leave you with this music video of Kelly Clarkson's I Do Not HookUp. It's stuck in my head and it's a teeny teeny bit what I want to say out loud. You know. *wink*

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

One of the best 4 days of my life...so far.


Okay, it's a bit of an exaggeration but what I'm feeling is slightly close to being one of the best since 2006. I am smiling, happy than usual and I feel giddy like a teenager who has a huge crush on someone... or something like that.

So I am sorry that I have not been updating my blog. There were a lot that was going on and I might just end up rambling nonsense, that's why I took the time to have some "brain rest" from blogging and think of what's really worth posting about.

I came up as usual with TENNIS. Wimbledon started yesterday, June 22 and Roger Federer has the first game and first win against Yen-Hsun Lu. He won 3 straight sets. Cool.
Also up yesterday were Serena Williams, Novak Djokovic, Maria Sharapova, Robin Soderling, Fernando Verdasco, Tommy Haas, Jo-Wilfried Tsonga, and Elena Dementieva, all of which won. Plus there were a couple more unseeded players who played. It's going to be a busy Tournament Round, I cannot wait until the Qualifying Round and see Roger win again.

Playing tonight:
Venus Williams (won)
Andy Roddick (won)
Andy Murray (on-going)
Jaun Martin Del Potro (won)
Dinara Safina (won)
Gilles Simon
Svetlana Kuznetsova
Jelena Jankovic (won)
Ana Ivanovic (won)

I will be posting more detailed opinions maybe during the Qualifying Rounds, there's just a lot to watch right now.

Regarding my best 4 days so far... I just feel giddy giddy. Thanks to someone. Not that he knows. :) 

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Nadal withdraws from 2009 Wimbledon and a few other updates.


I am not a big fan of Rafael Nadal but it's bad that he won't be defending his Wimbledon title this year. World number 1, Rafael Nadal, withdrew from Wimbledon Friday night after the Men's draw earlier that day. 
"He was diagnosed with tendinitis in both quadriceps tendons as well as a small amount of fluid on the kneecaps."

I think it's sad. Again, it would be more glorious if he would lose and Roger Federer would re-claim his Wimbledon title after losing it to Nadal last year. But health should come first and Nadal has decided to get better first.

Moving on, I previously joined a contest over at Gems by Jerri, my first time to enter any contest since the start of my blogging, and just today I joined my second one over at Tired Mama, she will be giving away an iPod Shuffle and a $20 iTunes gift card. One entry if you comment on her post (that is if you have honestly did some exercise for the day), another entry if you Twit about it and another one if you sign up to the website indicated on her post. Since I don't have a Twitter account, the next best thing is posting about her contest here. I don't know if this will count but I hope it will. If not, I still have one very hopeful entry praying to be drawn as the winner. :) PLEASE LET ME BE THE WINNER. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! IT WOULD BE NICE TO RECEIVE A GIFT. :) :) :)

Aside from the Wimbledon update that I have and another contest that I have joined, today is going to be another eventful day for me. I will be out tonight to celebrate one of my dear friend's birthday. Well, his birthday is actually tomorrow but he'll be having his party tonight. His birthday has become quite a tradition every year and this one is especially meaningful because this is the first that all of us are college graduates, meaning this party would be sort of like a reunion too. Exciting! More exciting is that I am tasked to invite ALL our friends to attend. As if I didn't see that one coming. Them guys always ask me to either be the events coordinator or the treasurer or most of the time even both. At least they have something to say about me in my eulogy! It's a little exhausting because he only told me about it yesterday afternoon while I was blog hopping and trying to finalize my ideas for my new blog. 

By the way, I am still open for suggestions about my new blog. Wordpress or Typepad? How to monetize? Theme? Title? Button/Badge? La La La La La La La.

Friday, June 19, 2009

New Blog Update...


...or not. I have no update at all. I am stuck with only the subjects of what my new blog will be but I have no URL in mind, no tag line, no decision yet whether to use Wordpress or Typepad, I did however receive a number of comments from my previous post and Wordpress is now on top of my list, I will be contacting Lady Java later this week about my button/badge or if someone out there is willing to do it for me for free or for a cheaper amount just let me know, I would appreciate it a lot, I also need help with how Wordpress works (I heard Adsense is not allowed, so you can suggest other ways for me to monetize it), etc. etc. Eric of BlogDeManila offered to help me with it. Please please contact me via e-mail. :)

Check List:

1. Blog Topic/s
2. Blog Title
3. Blog URL
4. Blog Host
5. Blog Badge/Button
6. Blog Theme
7. Blog Tag Line
8. Blog Set-up
9. Blog Launch

Woot! One down. 8 more to go with only less than 3 weeks before my tentative "launch". I already have a URL/username in mind but it's a bit long. Argh! Okay, my new blog will be about TV shows, movies, books, and music. It won't be like the kind with regular gossip updates or anything like that. It will be a lot organized than this blog, posts will be scheduled and well the content is of specific subject but it will still be a PERSONAL blog with my opinions, stories, comments, etc. I won't try to be like some professional bloggers because I don't think I'd last in that line. I'll just go with the flow with this one because this one I am sure to enjoy! :)

E-mail me for suggestions or any help and/or leave me a comment here. 
Thanks you guys!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Planning on a new blog.


I have been planning on putting up a new blog for quite sometime now but I was still undecided on what the content would be. I wanted it to be about something specific, like a niche but nothing too serious, still in my line of interest and something I could share my opinion on. And last night, while I was watching a late night movie to help me fall asleep, I came up with an idea. 

I now know what my new blog is going to be about. It will be something about my 3 favorite things and I can't wait to put it up. Now I have to decide whether to still use Blogger or try TypePad or Wordpress, I still have to use free hosting because I don't have sufficient funds to support a hosted site, then there's the layout and most importantly my banner/button/widget. You all know I'm not that talented to make one for myself. I need help!

As a birthday present, anyone? :)

My tentative date for the new blog is sometime after my birthday on the 28th. For real! :) I'm so thrilled. This is going to be the first time that I will be sticking to a subject on a blog. By the way, this personal bubble of mine is staying. You can still read about what's going in my life, random happenings, rants and raves. This is my personal bubble online, right? I'm here for the long haul.

Any suggestions and help will be greatly appreciated!

On another note, I am joining Jerri's of Gems by Jerri's Contest. This is actually a first time that I will be joining any contest online and I hope I'll win! You know, something for myself on my birthday since the draw date of the winner is exactly on the day of my birthday, the 28th. I'm not excited about it but I'm always giving it as an excuse for wanting something (i.e. I'm giving away EC credits for my Top 5 Droppers this month because it's my birth month, I'm joining this contest because it's my birthday, I'm trying to save up with my online money making because it's my birthday, etc. etc.).

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Daddy Dream, Rainy Tuesday, Itchy Red Spots and Application Follow-Up.


Part 1.

I woke up with tears streaming down my cheeks earlier. I dreamt of my Daddy again. It's not surprising that I would be dreaming of him especially since Father's Day is fast approaching. But I think that was not the main reason why he appeared in my dreams, hugging me so tightly while saying: "Everything will be okay. You are my most favorite daughter." while I hug him back with a reply: "I love you Daddy... so much." And then I woke up with my brother standing beside my bed. Every time I go over my head worrying too much about getting a job, budgeting finances, planning to look for a new place and all things about the future, Daddy always makes me feel his presence by showing up in my dreams. He used to tell me that I'm his favorite because I am the most thrifty child he has. I'm not sure if he's joking but I guess not. When I think about it, no matter how expensive my things are they are still cheap compared to my other half-siblings' and I only buy "by appointment". I see something today that I like, I tell my Dad about it and ask him to buy it the next week or as a gift for the next occasion (if it's too pricey). Last night, I had a hard time falling asleep because I was thinking about my job hunting. Maybe that's why Daddy feels like he needs to reassure me like he always do that everything will be okay which is actually what I need.

Part 2 and 3.

Today is another rainy day and unlike last Sunday and yesterday, it was dark and raining outside the whole day. I feel pumped up amidst the lazy weather, did my usual routine all the while worrying about these red spots that appeared on my legs and a few in my arms and left chest. The first one appeared on my knees weeks ago, it was a small red itchy spot which eventually doubled the size. And now there are about 12 small red spots al over both my thighs and 2 on my arms and 1 on my left chest. I started applying Desowen on them and if by next week nothing's changed, I will have them checked out already. As a pre-caution I am also cutting down eating too much chicken, eggs, dairy products, fish sauce and soy sauce. I had a case once like this but it appeared on my belly. I seriously thought they'd leave a mark, thank God they didn't. Now I'm hoping these doesn't either or I'd go mad!

Part 4.

I could not wait any longer. I started to pull some strings and asked one of my relatives who is working in one of the companies that I have applied in to look into my application and see what he can do. I am not asking that I get in without any exams or interviews. I just want to be given a chance to show them what I've got instead of just doing nothing while waiting for a call from any of the bundle of companies that I have sent my CV to already. So he called me up and said that he talked to the hiring personnel already and she'll find my CV and call me when they already have a schedule for the next examination. The position that I have applied for has 2 vacancies. They already got one. I hope I am the other lucky one to get in.

Sigh. Still searching and applying.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Music Monday: Because I Am Stupid - SS501


For the past days my entries are mostly about my new "craze" of the moment: Boys Over Flowers and recently its soundtrack has also invaded my iTunes. By recently, I meant last night. After finishing the entire series I went and looked up some songs that I've heard but since it was all in Korean I had no idea where to start searching so what I did was I downloaded the entire soundtrack via torrent. I found the song and "discovered" other tracks that are beautiful too. I may not understand the lyrics because it's Korean but I found a site that has both Korean and English lyrics.

Here's one of the songs that I've been playing over and over since last night:

This is my first time to join Music Monday.
Please, please, please watch the video. It has English Subs so there'll be no problem with understanding it. The song is quite
catchy and the video is just too sweet! Watch it and see what I'm talking about.

Because I'm Stupid by SS501 

nae meorineun neomuna nappaseo
neo hanabakke nan moreugo
dareun sarameul bogoinneun neon
ireon naemaeumdo moreugetji
neoui harue naran eopgetji
tto chueokjocha eopgetjiman
neoman baraman bogoinneun nan
jakku nunmuri heureugoisseo

neoui dwitmoseubeul boneungeotdo nan haengbogiya
ajik naui maeumeul mollado
kkeutnae seuchideusi gado

niga neomu bogosipeun naren
neomu gyeondigi himdeun nareneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdora
honja dasi tto crying for you
honja dasi tto missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

neoui harue nan eopgetji
tto gieokjocha eopgetjiman
neoman baraman bogoinneun na
honja chueogeul mandeulgo isseo

naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangcheogata
neoui yeppeun misoreul boado
hamkke nan utjido motae

niga neomu saenggangnaneun naren
gaseum sirigo seulpeun nareneun
niga bogosipda ipgae maemdora
honja dasi tto crying for you
honja dasi tto missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Bye bye never say good bye
ireoke japji motajiman
I need you amu maldo motae I want you baraedo dasi baraedo

niga neomu bogosipeun naren
neomu gyeondigi himdeun nareneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdora
honja dasi tto crying for you

niga neomu saenggangnaneun naren
neomu gyeondigi himdeun nareneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdora
honja dasi tto crying for you
honja dasi tto missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Come join Music Monday and share your songs with us. One simple rule, leave ONLY the actual post link here. You can grab this code at LJL Please note these links are STRICTLY for Music Monday participants only. All others will be deleted without prejudice.

*note: I have replied to al your comments on my previous posts, feel free to check them out. :)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Rainy Sunday and another Crazy Dream.


I mentioned earlier that I will be taking my blog hopping and EC dropping a little lightly and while doing so, I would spend my time watching Boys Over Flowers (also known as Boys Before Flowers). That was last Friday and earlier this afternoon I was able to finish the entire Koreanovela! I spent about 2 nights staying up late until 5 A.M. just so I could finish it and I tried pulling an all-nighter like what I did to 3 other Korean Series (My Girl, Princess Hours and Lovers) but I couldn't anymore. I thought I could make it last night, I was able to stay up again until 5 A.M. with only 4 episodes left and it was starting to get "good".  As much as I like to watch until the end, my eyes gave up one me. I finally succumbed to dreamland and yes, I had another dream. Crazy, sweet, weird dream.

This is my huge crush in the said series, Lee Min Ho (Gu Jun Pyo):

Normally, I am expecting him to be the one in my dreams if ever I would have one. But no. This guy invaded my sweet dream as soon as I closed my eyes. And it was one of those dreams that looks and feels real. You know that feeling that even though you have a beautiful dream you still know that you are just dreaming? And the feeling where you're not conscious at all that you are only dreaming? I experienced the latter as with all the beautiful dreams I have had.
Another one of the characters in BOF, Kim Bum (So Yi Jung):

Who do you guys think is the cutest? I personally go for Lee Min Ho. He's more my type but I also like Kim Bum. This is the first time that I actually have a crush on some Korean actor/s. I feel like a high school student with a woozy feeling. Haha! Oh my dream was so sweet I wish it was true!! That's all I could share or else you guys will think I'm a lovesick teenager.

I dreamt of him until 2:30PM. Yes, I slept in until that late. Sorry!! I feel like a total bum typing this down. Anyway, I woke up and finished the rest of the episodes and finished about 5PM, went down and realized it was raining. I had coffee and started seeking job openings again. Please let me have a job before this year ends. My deadline keeps moving, first it was February then before my birthday and now that that it looks like there's a bleak chance that I won't be getting that lucky this month, I am moving my deadline up to December. Please!! I seriously need it!

Speaking of my birthday, exactly 2 weeks from now I would be turning another year older. I already started making my traditional birthday wish list album and I would share it with you guys one of these days. I accept shipment and I am very very appreciative, don't worry. LOL. :) My list is merely a guideline just to give you an idea. I'm half-kidding!

photos from: http://www.flicker.com

*The first photo of Lee Min Ho is my current desktop image. :x

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Nothing good happens after 2 AM!


After a couple of friends here suggested How I Met Your Mother for me to watch, I downloaded all the seasons and started watching almost immediately. It didn't took me long to finish it since each episode only lasts 20 minutes. Okay, this entry is not meant to be a review of the said TV series/sitcom. I would just like to give you friends a piece of advice or just something to ponder on and help you make a decision in whatever applicable situation you are in.


I had a lot of unforgettable quotes from HIMYM. Some are just ridiculously funny and some are ridiculously true. The one stated above, happens to be one of the ridiculously true ones. I am not going to say what happened to me last night at that hour but the "nothing good happens after 2 A.M" was true to its word. Yes it was fun at the moment but the feeling after is just not right. 

The saying above may not be applicable to all persons and situations but the meaning is there and it's going to be helpful  when the time comes. I'm just sure of it.

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