Sunday, December 27, 2009

Movie: I Love You, Goodbye.

Christmas day here in the Philippines also means that Metro Manila Film Festival is on and that only Filipino movies (particularly those who are entries of MMFF) are being shown in the theaters for about 2 weeks.

I don't look forward to the MMFF except when Judy Ann Santos and Ryan Agoncillo had their movies but I do watch at least one movie during the course of the festival. I cannot believe Shake, Rattle and Roll is still alive and that I always watch it. :| Moving on, the only promising movies for me in this year's MMFF d Mano Po 6 and I Love You, Goodbye.

Mano Po 6 because there's Megastar Sharon Cuneta, Zsa Zsa Padilla, etc. and previous Mano Po's have proven their award-winning "skills" but even though I think it'll be this year's Numero Uno in the box-office I don't think I will watch it in the theaters. No. Come on, how many Mano Po's are there? 100?!

And then there's Star Cinema's entry: I Love You, Goodbye and the great story and wonderful actors (except for Kim Chiu). I watched it yesterday with my BFF at Shangri-La. Uhm, yeah... my BFF made fun of me the entire time because 1. my BFF is a dude 2. hence, he does not watch Filipino movies especially MMFF entries and 3. he had no idea that ILYG is a Tagalog movie when I told him the day before that we should watch it, he was surprised when he asked me 4 hours before the screening time and I told him YES. So he had no choice but to watch it with me. :)

I think the movie was good however, there were some scenes and dialogues that are... bad. Not bad that it's gross or anything in that category but bad that's could have been better, bad because I don't like Kim Chiu's portrayal, her voice and the way she talks and oh, Gabby Concepcion's acting is seriously not my type. You guys better watch it and let me know what you think about the movie and the actors.

Overall, I Love You, Goodbye is a good watch because of the story and because of Angelica Panganiban and Derek Ramsey. :)

Merry Christmas!!

I am a day late but it does not mean that my greeting everybody a happy holidays just now is less sincere. I know I have been MIA for almost 2 weeks and I definitely am sure that I missed a lot of happenings with my friends' blogs. That part makes me sad but... well, they know I'm with them in spirit and I am always thinking of YOU. It might sound crazy but I do think of the blogs that I used to visit and read everyday but I don't get to for the past days and imagine that I am actually reading them. That's how much I miss all of you! I have a lot of stories to share and I'd really start typing them now for scheduled postings before the holiday ends and I'm back to my busy busy schedule (not that I have a lot of free time on my hands even on holidays).

Anyway, I would just like to greet everyone a very happy christmas! I hope you all enjoyed this day with your family and loved ones and don't forget to hug them, thank them and say I love you to them. :) Time is fleeting!

I wish my Dad is still alive and my Mom is here with us in the Philippines but they're not so I just tell them "I love you" when I pray (my Dad) and on Facebook and IM messages (my Mom). I miss them both so much!

Catch you guys later!

Have you read my entry below? I want my love story too. Read and comment!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I want my love story too.

Hi guys! How have you all been? I have been twice as preoccupied and thrice as exhausted these past days and haven't had the energy to go around and drop by my favorite blogs. I miss all of you!

Today, I am just dropping by to share with you something that I have found a few minutes earlier. Yes, I have read about this a few minutes ago and I cannot wait to share this with you. I fell in love with them and their story that I seriously got tears in my eyes and I feel like crying right now.

I am currently doing some daily tasks and one of it include searching for certain photos that can be included in a website. As I was searching, I stumbled about a photo with a title "This is heaven". Unfortunately, I cannot seem to save the image but you can check it out by clicking HEREspaceball.gif. I fell in love with their photos and checked out their blog and discovered that they have actually been featured in one of the top local newspaper here in the Philippines, Philippine Daily Inquirer. This is a must-read article for those in love, wants to fall in love, already lost hope in falling in love, etc. etc. Ironic that while I was reading the article, my iTunes played "Is It You" by Cassie. Now I really feel like crying.

Check out the article about Aaron and Rosie HERE.
Check out their blog HERE.

And listen and watch Is It You below:

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there
When I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone
To share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to,
Who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call
Who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Sunday, December 13, 2009

What do you think of having 2 jobs?

So, okay I have not really been active at all during the past week and I terribly missed blogging! For real! It's like I have this list of new topics to write but then again at the end of the day I already feel too tired and too exhausted to work my brain out. It's not a writer's block but it's a little similar to that.

I am not sure if I have already shared with you that I landed a home-based job last November. It takes most hours of my day doing my tasks that I already feel drained during the night. It's already feels like a real job to me because I get paid monthly with a reasonable enough salary for 8 hours of work every weekday except that I can accomplish those tasks at the comfort of my own home or wherever I please. I enjoy doing this and I feel a whole lot comfortable than going through the hassle of everyday traffic, meal expenses, etc. but there's just one thing... I cannot exactly count it as employment and I have specific goals to attain within next year. That is why I decided to go out and apply for a second job... and I got hired!

Now, I feel like I am going to be completely drained out to be able to handle all my online activities but I will do my best to figure things out. I will go back to advertising my blogs again probably on January of 2010. Can you guys believe it's already 2010 in a few weeks time? I can't. It feels like 2009 just passed me by. Sure I have had lots of fun activities during the summer but in general, I cannot think of any significant thing that happened to me except that I got a job last November, I get to hang out with friends and that I got hired for a second job this month. But I guess this is a rather good way to end 2009 and welcome 2010, don't you think? I am set to having a real "work experience" to put into my CV other than my 2 student training (practicum/OJT) by next year. My friends think I would not last a year. One even gave me 2 months before I quit and the other one said 3 months but is hoping for a year. Okay, I'm motivated. I will go for at least 6 months. ;) That is when the one I am really expecting for next year won't happen earlier or else I would leave the second job in less than 6 months ( just the second job).

I am expecting things to go the way I want and will do what I have to achieve those things. Thanks to friends of mine who helped me get my shiz straight. :D

Two jobs! Whatcha think?

Monday, December 7, 2009

25 Days of Christmas Holiday Contest by Travelin' With Marie.

Technically, there are only 18 days left before Christmas and this post is a week overdue. Sorry about that. Everyone has still a lot of time left to join though. I am a sponsor in this contest and yes, I am joining too. :) Oh please, indulge me. You guys know how I feel about contests and prizes what with the several times I have won in the past weeks and months. I'm feeling lucky!

And because this the season for sharing, I am sharing this contest and all the prizes that await every participants. Check out the banner (for the complete list of details) and all the prizes from the different sponsors of Travelin' With Marie:

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$10 gift certificate to Etsy shop- DaisyBookworm

We'll be waiting for all you blogging friends to join, yes?

See you!!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Top Droppers for November.

No matter how busy I am I would make time to thank everyone who are continuously dropping by my blog. I think last month was the busiest month I have had for the longest time. I felt so exhausted and helplessly drained out every day that I cannot find the strength anymore to go on and proceed to my usual blog activities after I finished my daily assignments. I am doing my best to juggle things around. Give me a month or two and I can handle my 2 blogs, blog hopping, adgitize-ing and finishing mu daily assignments all with my eyes closed. ;)

For now, I will be joining and sponsoring several blog contests (I'll keep you posted about those in the coming days) and of course, since today is the first of December it is time again for Top Droppers appreciation!
Wow, Martin has taken over my Top Droppers list. Thanks Martin and thank you to the rest of my top droppers and those who are not on the list but drop still.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

I hope to see you all this month. Don't forget to hit me comments every now and then and check back for my replies. I always try to reply to your comments.

Monday, November 30, 2009


I know this post is nearly 4 days late for a Happy Thanksgiving greeting but either way, I still want to greet all my friends from the US (and all over the world), Happy Thanksgiving and I hope you and your loved ones had a very great one!

Although Thanksgiving isn't really big here in the Philippines, I would like to join in on the celebration and keep my mind straight on things I should be thankful for and should take time to appreciate every single day.

I am thankful...

... for the friends I still have. I realized who my "happy" friends are and who my true friends are.

... that even though I am having a hard time landing myself a job, I still have an online work that is as good as doing a 9-5 day job minus the hassle of transportation and clothing and it pays.

... for the smiles and laughs I have everyday no matter how limited they may be for me.

... for the hopes, dreams and goals I still have for the future even though there are more days that I feel down in the dumps worrying about how to achieve them, overwhelmed by the tasks I barely know how to do and should be able to accomplish in a limited time.

... my Mom is safe, healthy and happy in the US.

... I sill have something to look forward to.

... I still have some positivity left in me and as long as I keep my faith and hopes up, I will survive.

Thanksgiving Day may have ended over the weekends but it should not stop us from giving thanks for the blessings that make us happy no matter how small or big they are. :)

How was your Thanksgiving Celebration? I hope you had a fab time!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Pinoy Big Brother: Double Up (PBB)


I am not a huge fan of reality TV but I have watched and honestly enjoyed watching Big Brother since its First Season years ago. I may not be as fanatic as most are or watch it every single night until the announcement of the Big Winner but I do watch it every chance I get.

This season of PBB is different than the previous ones. Big Brother now has 2 houses and 2 sets of different housemates: House A and House B. House A is the public's favorite house because the housemates are more pleasing than House B. I personally DISLIKE housemates from the B house. They are too wild, too loud, too negative, too chaotic, too immature, and too annoying! So I was not at all pleased when Big Brother decided to swap the girls from House A and House B. Yuck! I heard there are talks from the online community that they'll save House A nominees during the voting period and eliminate House B completely. Has this rumor reached Big Brother that's why he did the switch? Nonetheless, I still think that rumor would push through no matter how many swaps Big Brother decides to do. Housemates B do not appeal to majority of its viewers. Say what you like to say about haters and hating but their attitudes are NOT GOOD especially if you see them back to back with Housemates A. Sure you can't please everybody, you don't care what everyone else thinks of you, you are just being yourself and you'll do whatever you like to do because it is your life but then this is just me giving my opinion.

I have nothing againsta Kuya (Big Brother) for making that decision, it's a game and he just wants to see how each housemates would get along with others. I'm just irritated with how those housemates act... they look troubled and so mean. They're different and not in a good interesting kind of way.


Anyway, this is like the first time in all of PBB seasons that I disliked housemates this much. Nothing personal though. I'm just basing it with all the things they have been doing on national TV. Hopefully, everything will return to normal back there. Not like, I'll be affected directly. :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Consolation Prize Winner!!

I think November has been a rather great month for me and the contests that I have joined and I am extremely happy about it. Positive thinking does help, I guess. This is like the 2nd or 3rd win for me this month and even though my latest one is just a consolation prize... it's still a prize!

I joined Ate Mye's contest in her blog last month. I was honestly eyeing for the cash prizes and the ad spots prizes. I did not get lucky with the cash prize but I did win the 3-month ad spot to Ate Jade's MommaWannabe blog. I love!

Moral lesson: Try and try. Have faith. Think positive.

No matter how small a blessing this is... it is still a blessing.

Thank you!!

Monday, November 23, 2009

MM: Something to Believe In - Aqualung

First, I would like to give a shout out to Mommy Maria for all her comments in my entries. I really, really appreciate it and I appreciate that she enjoys the songs that I choose for my Music Monday entries. I hope you guys do too! :)

I am like a "ballad" girl. I learned that watching Glee. Ballads are like stories of your emotions, not necessarily a slow love song but a song that tells what you are feeling. I hope you get to know me through the songs that I am posting.

Today's featured song is from Aqualung and it's called SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN. Take a time to listen to it if you haven't yet.


Let me know what you think about it, okay? Happy Monday!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Good Times with Mo: The Blog.

I have a new guilty pleasure. Aside from all the teen-crazed series, movies, music, and social networking I have found myself another addition to my very long list of "pleasures" and that would be a new favorite blog on the web:

this is the Good Times with Mo: The Blog where I think the most humorous, frank, crazy, sarcastic and funny opinions of the country's most popular and "controversial" DJ can be found. I write this post with a whole lot of love for the DJ that I have been listening to since I was in grade 5. No, I'm not in grade 6. I have been listening to him and Miles when they were still doing the Top 5 countdown every 5 in the afternoon and until now that he's in a much earlier time slot with Good Times.

There are a lot of people who don't really get him, not like I'm saying that I do, but I think he's a pretty cool guy. Honest and very very opinionated. ;) Try visiting his blog for a sneak peek. Never fails to put a smile on my face no matter how crazy his topics sometimes are.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

New Moon Movie.

I was lucky enough to buy tickets of New Moon 1 week in advance for the first day screening. I wasn't too excited but I was definitely looking forward to watching it.

So yesterday, my 2 cousins and I were set to meet up at the mall an hour before the screening time. There were a lot of teenagers, young kids with their Moms and couples lobbying outside the movie house and lined up at the entrance. I suddenly felt a bit excited to see Robert Pattinson again.

The movie house was FULL. No seats vacant.




The End.

I wasn't too happy with the movie. I wasn't even close to being satisfied. It was okay. The Twilight movie, the first one, was way better than New Moon and I was even disappointed with it. Yeah. I'm such a spoiler. Not that I regret watching it or anything but my favorite conversation of Edward and Bella in the book was not included in the movie and it was to die for! Grr. I also think that the movie was kind of hurried or rushed or.... okay, a little (just a little) mediocre for my taste. I ended up listening to my audiobook version and reading the book before going to bed last night. I just had to feel that feeling I felt when I first read it. Sigh.

You guys should see it for yourselves though. Maybe it will appeal to some of you. :) I know some who were happy with the movie. I guess it's not really good when you have read the book and then you go see the movie. At least not in this case.

I give it a 5 out of 10. 5 all because of Edward. :)

Monday, November 16, 2009

Blog Award from Marie.

Pacquiao's win against Cotto was the perfect ending of the week and so I am going to start the week with a positive vibe and post this award that I've received from Marie last week. I super appreciate receiving blog awards because it makes me feel like there's at least one person out there who takes time to visit and read my blog and some of my thoughts interesting enough to keep them coming (or so I think, lol).

I think I received the same award from before but I'd still post this. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I don't have the luxury of time to look for 15 blogs to share this award with but I'll put this up and let 15 blogger friends take this award. Just let me know.

I have just been too busy with my online assignment, I haven't been able to update my blogs anymore and visit other blogs as well. Hopefully super busy days will be less this coming week. My brain was almost fried from last week's work and not that I'm complaining but the topic wasn't my "forte" so I'm having a bit of difficulty with it. I'll get through this.

Time for scheduled posts and catching up this Sunday night.

Have a great, happy week ahead and see you guys on the weekend. I'll try to take a peek when I get the chance. ;)

MM: Forever & Almost Always.

It's Monday again and it's time for Music Monday. This is only my second or third time to participate and my song for today is a little sentimental. I have heard this while watching One Tree Hill I think because Katy Voegele, the artist is a regular guest star on the show and her songs are amazing. This one in particular is AMAZING.

Listen and let me know. :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

And he made history!

Once again, Manny Pacquiao proved that he is the best boxer there is in today's generation by winning against Puerto Rican Miguel Cotto in today's boxing match. I was hoping for a total KO in between 5th-8th rounds but stopping the match in the middle of the 12th round is as much as a victory already. Today, he made history by being the only boxer to have 7 titles to his name. Hurray!

photo: ElPasoTimes AP Photo/Jae C. Hong) (Jae C. Hong)

I gotta give it to Cotto, he was strong and he did win the first round. He fell down to his knees in 2 rounds but was able to stand up and last up to 12 rounds. The referee had to stop it cos Cotto was bleeding bad already. I personally think it should have been stopped as early as the 10th round.

It was also cool reading several Hollywood celebs tweeting about watching Pacquiao vs. Cotto match and rooting for our main man. Here are some that I saw earlier:

I am starting to love Joel Madden :) He's pretty cool. And I saw So there, today was spent watching Pacquiao, talking about Pacquiao, Facebook-ing about Pacquiao, Tweeting about Pacquiao and blogging about Pacquiao. It's not like I'm going to receive any shopping money from him for all the cheers and intense anxiety that I felt earlier but it's a pride moment for all Filipinos. I am not a huge fan of boxing, no. But when it's Pacquiao, Filipino spirits soar high!

Congratulations, Manny Pacquiao!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Why, BB?

My good ol' BB is slowly saying bye bye to me. First, the camera won't work and now the whole photo album won't open. Fantastic! I think it's still fine and I can still use it until next year as long as the call and text work perfectly fine.

I have no plans of getting a new phone any time soon. I was honestly thinking of replacing it on my next birthday which is like 7 months from now. Enough time for me to save up or ask my Mom for it as a birthday present or something. Yes, I would definitely wait until then.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Beautiful World - Carolina Liar

This song has been my favorite since I heard it months ago. Once I start to listen to this
on my iPod or my iTunes, I can't stop myself from repeating it.
I know Music Monday is over obviously because it's already Wednesday but I feel like sharing
this to all of you as I'm listening to it in my background (I told you, I can't stop once I start).

I hope you enjoy this as much as I do. The lyrics personally struck me although it's a little pessimistic
if you read it/listen to it carefully BUT the beat of the song contradicted it making the message of the song sound
hopeful and positive.

Exactly my sentiments. EXACTLY. I think for the time being, this is going to be my "life song".

It's weird that the video has 0:00 in its time but it actually plays. So please listen to it. :)

You guys have any "life song"? Would love to know and listen to it too!

Happy Wednesday!!

Friday, November 6, 2009

Friday Thought.

I noticed this week has been a quotation week for me and I'm loving it. I should have this more often. ;) Oh, it wasn't intentional though, it just happened and with a specific "subject" at that. These quotations are speaking directly to me.

"We are tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticisms and even senseless tragedies. But the good news is that God wants us to pass the tests of life. So He never allows the tests we face to be greater than the grace He gives us."
- a quote my friend sent me via SMS


Goodnight friends! I feel so mentally exhausted right now and thank heavens for weekends. Will probably sleep, rest and sleep tomorrow. :)

Happy weekend!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Thursday Thought.

Remember my Tuesday Thought? Well, I took a break and caught up with my Grey's Anatomy for the week.

This was what hit me in the episode:

"There's always a way. When things look like there's no way, there's a way. To do the impossible, to survive the in-survivable, there's always a way."
-Grey's Anatomy

Enough said. Grey's Anatomy is speaking for me. ;)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Tuesday Thought.

"I need to psych up more and focus! I'm losing hope and I think that's what's worse than having no job... losing hope."
-Mara de Guzman

Some good quotations about Hope (or at least those that applies to me):

George Bernard Shaw: "He who has never hoped can never despair."

Erik Erikson: "Hope is both the earliest and the most indispensable virtue inherent in the stage of being alive. If life is to be sustained hope must remain, even when confidence is ruined, trust impaired."

Winston Churchill: "The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty."

So much for me being proactive in the past weeks. I tried. You guys know I tried, right? I tried HARD.
Today however, I will give in and let out my frustrations... yet again. SORRY! I know I've been going on and on about me having difficulties landing a job, on and on about my financial constraints and then on and on about finally psyching myself up, feeling all happy like I have finally made peace with my worries but then... there are days like today. Today, where I am at a low point again and what's worse is that I actually have something to look forward to because I got an online stint which will help me pay and save up. Yesterday, I was feeling motivated. I went and apply to 3 companies again feeling high (in a natural good way) and hopeful then today I woke up feeling anxious, frustrated, confused and LOST.

Sorry, I'm bipolar.

I'll make it up tomorrow, hopefully! :) :) :) :)

I think I'm going to start doing my scheduled posts days or even a week in advance to prepare for my online stint schedule for this month. I think that's part of my feeling anxious. I worry too much. I'm having a cup of coffee right now and it's helping a little.

Monday, November 2, 2009

All Souls' Day.

November 2, All Souls' Day and I went earlier today to visit my Dad.

I miss him every single day.

I posted this video on my Facebook page and thought that I should also share it here with you guys. This is a very sweet, sad and timely video for this "occasion".

My Dad didn't allow me to ride a bike so I don't know how.

My Dad won't be able to walk me down the aisle when I get married.

And I wasn't there with him when he breathe his last breath.

But I cried watching this video. I cried for the times that did not happen and would not happen anymore.
I cried because I wasn't there to say "you can let go now, Daddy" but I think it was much okay that way because
I know I wouldn't have the strength to say it to him.
I cried because I'm still not okay. I cried because even though Daddy didn't teach me how to ride a bike, he taught
me how to carry myself. He may not be able to walk me down the aisle but he was there walking down the aisle with
me during my grade school and high school graduation and it broke my heart that he was 5 months gone before my college graduation.

My one frustration is that I didn't get to hug and kiss him one last time. That is what's breaking my heart until now.

I love you Daddy.

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