...is exactly what I'm feeling right now.
F My Life.
I don't mean to sound bitter or anti-life or anything like that. I just need to vent out a little. I feel stressed out. I had a hard time falling asleep last night and when I woke up this morning, the first message I read on my cellphone is from my service provider informing me that they temporarily disconnected my outgoing calls and messages due to my overdue balance, and then I realized that I owe someone a little too much of an amount and to top it all, I still haven't heard from any company that I have applied in for the past couple of weeks. Seriously. I need a job!
There's no food in the pantry.
No food in the refrigerator.
We pay bills a day or two late (which never happened before).
My phone line's cut.
We buy things (literally every thing) individually.
We haven't shopped for food or clothes in a while and I only have a week's supply of wearable underwear and clothes.
I am admitting that I am ZERO.
I can't breathe.
I didn't do good in my online "work" either since I was sick for more than a week and I've gone MIA and I need to rest. Oh please. I need my earnings from CIAO. I need to reach payout in myLot. I need to reach payout in Adgitize. I need to receive my CashOut from Adgitize. I need to sell some old stuff. I need to have a job. I need MONEY.
I am being honest here and I'm sorry if this post seems too materialistic. This is just reality. I am not asking for too much. All I want is enough money to pay the bills, buy food, pay my little debt and have a little extra breathing amount on the side.
Work. Breathe. Money. Breathe. Bills. Breathe. Live. Breathe.