Tuesday Random Thought

I was going about my Twitter timeline when I saw a a tweet from a friend of mine:

"What makes two people come together? By fate or destiny?"

I replied:


"What makes two people come together? CHOICE."

You choose your fate, you choose your destiny. Basically, it all comes down to CHOICE... whether you want it bad enough or not, whether it's worth it or a waste of a time, whether it's good or bad, right or wrong.

My very own version of FUN rainy day activities.

I talked about how crazy the weather here has been in my post yesterday. Today, it only rained early in the morning and the sun was up the rest of the day. I don't know if that's good because it was extremely hot. See how crazy and weird the weather is? Extremes. It was raining nonstop yesterday and then today... the sky was clear, the sun was up and the cool air was gone.

Nonetheless, I still continued my super fun and relaxing rainy-day "activities". Okay, I am more of a boring person than a cool, spontaneous one. I like peace and quiet and alone time most of the time but like a normal person, I get crazy and silly too once in a while. Plus, I am not a sporty person. The only physical activity I have are walking and jogging. I guess I can say that I am a laid-back, homebody girl.

Want proof? Take a look at what I enjoy doing on a fine, cold, rainy day:

• Stay online: check my mail, Facebook, blog and visit other blogs while...
• I stay curled up in my soft bed with my pillows or on the comfy couch while...
• I watch a lot of TV shows or watch and do a marathon of re-runs of my favorite TV series or DVDs and
• Munch on my favorite chips, candies, juice, coffee and water and then afterwards,
• Do my indoor exercise: climb up and down the stairs for 15 minutes and do crunches, sit-ups and jumping jacks.
• Take a loooooooong good bath.

Sometimes, it also varies depending on my mood. The third bullet changes when my mood does. It can change from a movie/TV series marathon to a book reading day to researching and browsing through different articles from different websites in the internet.

Now, I know that it may seem like I could do these things even on a normal sunny day. I still do BUT, when the sun is up I have no problem getting out of the house, going to the mall, having coffee outside, window-shopping, hang out over at a friend's house and all other outdoor thingies. When that happens, my rainy-day activities (which are also applicable on a sunny weather) is cut down to just the first and fifth bullets. You cannot ask me to go out of the house when the sky is cloudy and it's raining even if you drag me, NO. I am a boring, homebody girl when it's raining and I LOVE it! :) I love that about me.

Ooh, this post is also inspired and is an entry to Ate Earth of Earthlingorgeous' Rainy Day Contest.

*crossing fingers to win*

Check it out too!

Hugs!

Random Rainy Sunday Entry.

I don't know about you guys but the weather here in the Philippines, specifically here in Manila, has been crazy for the past couple of weeks. When we have typhoon signals, the rain stops. When there is no typhoon signal, it's dark outside and the rain just won't stop. Crazy I tell you. It gets even crazier because this is the second week that we are experiencing cloudy, cold and rainy days nonstop except for last Thursday when the clouds finally cleared up and I thought that finally the weather is going to be okay again but night time came and the rain poured down... poured down hard. It hasn't stopped since. Not completely anyway. This kind of weather just makes me want to stay at home, have a huge mug of coffee, eat, watch some TV and do online stuff.

Having said that, today is a very cloudy, rainy Sunday and in lieu of keeping my word of having a more productive day than usual, I took baby steps and started backing up my files and deleting a few of them afterwards. My MacBook's memory is down from it's original 160GB space to a 3.15GB and it's killing me. Yesterday, I am almost in the brink of a panic attack when my laptop's startup didn't end. It usually starts up fast even with a memory space below 20GB but yesterday, no it didn't. I had to wait for more than 10 minutes with no success, I turned it off and on and off a lot of times. Good thing it worked. I sweat droplets! So, now before it gets worse and the "folder with a question mark" appears instead of the Apple when I turn it on, I am backing up everything I got here. Better be safe than sorry, right?

What else?

Oh! My good friend, who I also call my BFF, were supposed to go out for a good food trip at KFC or McDonald's earlier tonight but yeah, since the weather is a "bed weather" we decided to stay in and just do it next week. I was already picturing KFC's hot and crispy chicken and McDonald's fries and caramel sundae. Yum! But then it's fine, at least I won't be spending on food... again! I tell you, food is my ultimate weakness hence my food blog was born. :)

Btw, while I was browsing through different blogs I stumbled upon one who posted a proof of payment from some site which they claim pays you for the traffic that you get. I read several comments from the post and decided to give it a try. It sounds too good to be true but then what's the harm in trying? It's for free anyways and it's not time consuming so I really have nothing to lose. The site is called Paid-To-Promote and they send out payments twice a month, on the 15th and 30th via Paypal. From what I understand, all you have to do is to put up their code on your site and for every visitor that you get that stays for at least 10 seconds, they will credit you for it. Told you it's very easy and too good to be true. Let's see how I'll do and I'll keep everyone posted. If anyone is interested just click HERE.

Hugs!

photo c/o: www.flickr.com

P.S.

Today (or tonight in my case) is the Men's Singles Semi Finals between Rafael Nadal and Juan Martin del Potro to be followed by Roger Federer and Novak Djokovic. I don't know whether I should go have an eye shut first and just wake up after Nadal and del Potro's match or stay up all throughout the start. The first match starts at 12PM New York time and 12MN Manila time. Yes, that late. I'm used staying up until early in the morning but I felt my lids getting heavy just now. Hmmmmm. You guys know I am a huge Federer lover, so.... fighting off sleeping is my number one goal.

Friday Frustrations: Job Hunt & Money Matters.

If you've been following me here, you know how frustrated I already am to find a job. I started applying January 1, 2009. I sent out my CV to A LOT of companies since then. I had several interviews-slash-exams but that's just about it. I stopped applying and decided to let my applications sink in first. Then I started applying again. Just this week I had one exam in a bank and 2 interviews in the same company. I wasn't qualified to take the initial interview after my exam and the result of the 2 interviews I had in one company is still "pending". I am seriously seriously tired of having to apply and looking forward for calls and getting interviews and then not hearing from them again. Maybe it's because I've been spending a lot when I go to interviews. I pay for the transportation, food, printing out of my CV, etc. And you guys know how tight my budget is right now! Ugh. It's just frustrating.

Speaking of budget, another thing that's getting me all worked up is my pending payment in one review site that I joined sometime last year. Since our country got banned there and it's now renamed and owned by a new company, they've been sending out pending payments to their members. But my almost $80 is still with them. I've been e-mailing them for months now, some members who they owed less than $10, even less than $5 have already been paid. I am in desperate need of any amount that I have pending online. Seriously. Right now they are my only source of income, if I could call it at least that.

So yeah, I hope they pay up and I get to receive it by first week of September! I could pay my debt to my brother and pay my phone bill with that amount. After that, I'd have no worries and I'll start from scratch again without thinking about debts and just worry and "work" for my own use.

Please! Please! Please!

Quarter-Life Crisis.

*Don't forget to check out MY GIVEAWAYS. :)

I found this one on my friend's notes in Facebook and thought it would be great to share it with you guys. This somehow summarized (or explained rather) what I have been going through this year.

This one just hits home and is EXACTLY what's going on with me. Sorry if this is quite long. It's worth the read.

For those in their twenty-something..

This puts it all into words perfectly. We call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or unsincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. This goes out to all twenty-somethings … maybe it will help them feel like they are not alone in the state of confusion that is our post-grad years!!! “

Now, who's with me???

Now what?

Yesterday I made a list of "tasks" that I need to accomplish within this week and I am so proud to say that most of them are done except of course for my final interview which would be on Thursday (I'm still asking for your prayers to help me get through it!).

After more than a week of house confinement, I went to the mall earlier today and bought some of the things that I need for my interview on Thursday. I bought stockings, face powder puff and nose pore strip. My Ellana Mineral Make-Up samples also arrived earlier. 

So far, I'm doing good about the "stay calm and focus" task and also the "move around" and "eat less and eat healthy" tasks.

The things I haven't started doing yet: 

- Review

- Sleep early and wake up early.

Oh, I think I want to add starting up another blog but this one I have in mind is just about a certain topic/subject. A collection of something. :) Maybe not this week but hopefully by the end of January. I'm going to need my own customized layout though to keep it organized since it's a collection. So, I need major help. Anyone? Pretty pretty please?

Okay, I was supposed to start sleeping in early last night but my brother and I had super late midnight snack and so I slept in after midnight again. Plus, I don't want to review. Not because I don't want to come in prepared, hell I've spent almost every day before the impact interview reading and browsing around, it's just that if I started reading them again I'd get anxious and nervous and I don't want to feel what I felt last week. I'm nervous enough already.

I noticed I'm feeling slightly not my usual grouchy self today. I haven't snarled on anyone at home and I'm keeping focus on things I want to be done. I've been thinking about starting a new blog like I've said awhile ago, I've dragged myself to go out of the house and found buying stockings as an excuse, I'm listening to Boyce Avenue the entire day and I'm loving their covers (you can watch their videos and listen to their songs via MySpace and YouTube--I would definitely blog about them some other day), and I'm looking forward to watching President-elect Obama's Inauguration later at Midnight here which probably means I won't be sleeping early tonight either.

Wish me luck on everything! Pray pray pray and prepare prepare prepare. :)

Oh, let me know if anyone could help me with the layout for my new blog. Would truly appreciate it!

Thank you in advance!

Random Sunday entry.

I feel like I have a lot of things to blog about and I don't know where to start first. Words are rambling inside my head and I can't organize them and write them all down. The easiest way I could think about to let them all out of my head is to just simply enumerate them. Less hassle. Less words yet straight to the point. 

1. I'm going to start to let my readers (uh-huh, I'm seriously thinking that I have at least a handful of readers) know that I've added a Cbox here in my blog. Drop a line or two, say hi, comment, let me know what you think, whatever, I'd appreciate it a lot and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Promise.

2. For about two days now, I'm thinking of modifying my blog. Organizing my entries, say a different tab for my food-related articles from my movies, music, book reviews and daily stuffs, a wider entry space than what my current layout has, and a bit more personalized. Why haven't I started reconstructing you ask? I don't know how. Unfortunately, I'm really not familiar with HTML stuffs let alone make my own layout for my blog. I want to have the "read more" tag in my entries but I don't know how. If anyone out there would like to help me, please please e-mail me at: mara_dguzman@yahoo.com

3. I cleaned my room a little. You know, just to sweat out and do a little moving around here. I'd probably clean more thoroughly on New Year's. New Year, clean room, organized things, I hope it would attract good luck for me for the year 2009 as I get rid of the dirt and dust around me, literally and metaphorically speaking.

4. Maybe I should start making another blog? Try the whole niche blog thing. I have quite a number of ideas already in mind but I don't know what's holding me back. Maybe it's because of the layout thing again and then the traffic and the maintenance. Having one blog is already a lot of work for me what with all the programs I have joined just to get a decent number of readers and the entries I think about every day. The topic is not that hard since this is a personal blog, but the typing and the wordings and stuff take a lot of time.

5. I want to buy a lot of things but I can't. I shouldn't. I wouldn't spend a large amount of money for whims if I don't have a job yet. I have to have a job within the first half of 2009. I have to work and earn.

6. Setting a time table for my every day would be a nice idea. With all my online quests, it's way hard to be able to finish them all in a day. Check e-mails, check Facebook, check Multiply, check CIAO, check MyLot, check Entrecard, check Adgitize, etc. etc. It's hard I tell you and I wake up at 10-11 AM and sleep around 2-3 AM. I try to squeeze them all in within that given time. Posting here, posting in CIAO, responding in MyLot, watching series, blah blah and blah.

7. This is getting quite long and this is about all of it, summarized.

New Year's in a few days and I'm still down in the dumps.

Just random.

I noticed I haven't posted for days, that's mainly because I'm just stuck here at home and I can't think of what to type but I promised myself I'm going to blog whether I have something to type about or none. And like heaven sent, while I was checking my Multiply account I read my schoolmate's blog entry and I'm going to link it cos it's kind of like what I'm thinking right now.

Here's something from Shibbie's entry:

"I think random things are the best topics to write about.

Anything random,

anything which doesn't make sense to others

but what makes sense to yourself

is what matters."

Please check THIS out for the complete entry.

click click click!

Hugs,

Mara