My Game Plan.

You friends know that I am sort of in a financial "crisis" right now and I am so upset, worried and frustrated about it. I have a lot of things going on right now even when in actuality, I am unemployed and mostly just at home. I feel exhausted thinking about ways to solve my problem without asking my Mom who is a thousand miles away and make her worry too. I want to spare her my problem because I know she has a lot of worries too (she pays for ALL the bills and other expenses here at home). The only help that I could give her right now is to NOT add up to her problems.

During my being on "house arrest" for about 2 weeks now, I came up with a game plan. No more worrying too much. No more thinking about the problems too much. No more too much wallowing in self pity. No more too much. I would focus MORE on the things that I can control.

I have got to do something more productive while waiting for things to turn around for me.

• Arrange my pre-employment requirements (SSS, NBI clearance, TIN #, etc.). I think it's only proper that I have them already since I graduated more than a year ago.
• Get an EON card at Union Bank for my PayPal transactions.
• "Improve" my online opportunities.
• Continue to apply for a job.
• Take things easy. Although my friends can't expect me to be as happy, spontaneous and as available as before. It's still hard not to worry about this kind of thing.

Hmm. I hope this is effective. It's the end of another week and I can start feeling better NOW. I will try my hardest.

To LEVY: No, it's not about credit card but it IS about a debt that I have.

For those willing to lend me whatever amount you can leave me a comment here.

Also, follow me on Twitter too. :)

Much thanks!

I am one desperate Tweeter.

Yup. I gave in and signed up for a Twitter account and now I am officially a Tweeter. It has been a almost a week since I finally decided to tweet and I have about 20 followers and several followings to this day.

Like any first timers, I didn't know what to do after I signed up. I don't know how it works. But after a few hours of tinkering and searching for celebrities and friends to follow and after posting my first tweet, I sort of got "addicted" to tweeting and replying to tweets and now I already have an idea on how Twitter goes and works. It is actually fun once you get the hang of it. Dang, now I have another addition to my uber busy DAILY online life:

• blogging, dropping, clicking, reading, commenting, browsing, chatting, facebook-ing, uploading, updating and watching.

I cannot believe I do that much in less than 24 hours.

On another topic, do you guys know what I realized just now? I realized I am living two different lives/personalities; my real life and my online life. I am not saying that either one is not real, both are but when I go online and start to blog I try not to dwell much on my problems. I try to sound less sad and more happy than I really am (yes, all my Friday Frustrations posts are already LESS sad).

Like today, I did something for the first time in my entire life. I texted my friend and asked if I could borrow some money and that I will pay her once I get my payment from Adgitize. I NEVER borrow money from friends, not any amount above P50 ($1) anyway. I am so desperate I want to ask monetary donations and post it as my status in Facebook, tweet it on Twitter and post about it as an entry here. It is not for personal leisure use (not mainly).

I would just pay up my debt to my brother (cos I "borrowed" a few thousand pesos to pay up my disconnected phone bill and buy meds after I got out of the hospital). That is my number one ultimate major problem right now because he is already asking for his money so that he could pay up his dentist. You see what I mean? So I swallowed my pride and asked a friend who replied a few minutes ago that she'll see what she can do, meaning still not sure. I need help guys! If you could spare me some, I promise to note it down, save your info and pay the amount back to you early next year. I would forever be grateful and sorry for the desperation.

To end this entry on a lighter note, please please please Follow Me on Twitter. I promise there's less, if not no drama tweets from me there! :)

Hugs!